Pregnant? PREGNANT!

Wow. WOW. We're having a baby, a lil peanut...a true blessing. Eeeee!

I want to remember this journey forever. One reason for the blog, since my memory right now is seriously MIA...pregnancy brain is a real thing folks!

Matt and I said our I do's on March 31st, 2012. We knew from the get go we wanted to have a family. I will be turning the big 3-0 next November (2013), so I obviously am not getting any younger. So we agreed we would put it in Gods hands...we weren't trying, but we definitely were not not trying (or doing anything to prevent a lil one). I started to track my cycle on a handy app and we went from there. I didn't want to admit it, but I secretly hoped we would be parents sooner than later. I have always had a fear I would not be able to get pregnant or there would be issues conceiving. So I did my best to just "go with the flow".

July 6th rolls around and Matt and I are driving to Colorado to meet my family there for some much needed family time. On our way back to Dallas, we had to stop at Wal Mart. I ran in to get what Matt & I needed and for some reason, I picked up a bottle of prenatal vitamins. I thought, "Well, it wont hurt anything." Little did I know...

The next week, on Tuesday, July 17th, we moved into our new home. Our first home. Matt and I were so excited to finally have a place that we could call ours. Ever since we had gotten back from Colorado, I could not stop thinking about how badly I wanted to have a baby. It seemed to be all I could think about. That Wednesday evening, out of wishful thinking, I decided to take a pregnancy test. It was negative, however I swear there was the faintest of faintest second line. Matt told me I was crazy, but to this day, I know it was there :). I figured Matt was right, and I was just seeing things I wanted to see. But I still had this feeling...The next day on the way to work, I stopped at CVS to buy another test, BUT they were closed! C'mon, in Dallas, all CVS's are 24hours! Guess I need to get used to the suburbs...Luckily Tom Thumb was across the street, so I stopped in there. However, their tests were still locked up bc the pharmacy wasn't open yet! So I the cashier had to do an embarassing all store speaker announcement for "The lady who needs the condom case unlocked." I was beginning to think I was just crazy, and CVS being closed and now this, was obviously a sign I did not need these tests. I wasn't pregnant.

So I get to work, tests in hand. I decided to get the ones that read "Pregnant" or "Not Pregnant"...This time I could not mistake the results. I was so excited because I just had this feeling I was pregnant. Well, the test came back..."NOT PREGNANT." I was so dissapointed. I was so mad at myself for getting my hopes up. I went about my day, still bummed out, but trying to staying positive. There was always next month, right?

Driving home, I still had that gut feeling in me that I was pregnant and maybe my hormones weren't strong enough for a positive result yet. So, of course, I go and buy 2 different kinds of tests. I didn't want Matt to think I was crazy (to this day, I don't think he knows how many tests I took! I dont think I even want to admit how many I did!), so I took a test before he got home. This time, there definitely was a faint positive line! My heart was racing as I googled "Faint positive line" and read that any type of a positive line, means you're pregnant! BUT I still wasn't convinced...that morning I had a test that read NOT pregnant. So I decided I'd sleep on it, well try to.

Matt and I were off the next day, Friday. We were planning on painting and doing house work all day. I made some excuse that I needed to run to WalMart for milk or something, when all I could think about was getting my hands on, yes, another test. I know, I seriously sound nuts. I purchased the clear, yes you are, no you're not test, ran home and gave it another shot. This time, there was no mistake...PREGNANT. Wait, what? No way. OMG. I can't take my eyes off of the bold word. Is this for real? I am definitely going crazy and seeing things. I yelled for Matt to show him the test. His eyes lit up and he mouthed, "Baby!" and squeezed me tight. I could not even form a sentence. I was a jumble of emotions. Estatic. Scared. Blessed. Fear. Love. Nervous. Excitement. All I wanted to do was get to a doctor to get blood work done to confirm!

I rushed to CareNow, and the wait felt like an entire week. Ugh, just call my name already! Plus the Lindsey Lohan, "Freaky Friday" movie was playing in the lobby, and that did not help any. The nurse finally calls my name, and I practically sprint to her. Long story short, she took my blood and says, "Ok, we will call you tomorrow with the results." Um no. Tomorrow? Can't I just wait here while you test it? How do you expect me to wait a WHOLE DAY! That is just wrong. So I did the next best thing...yep, I went home and took the rest of the tests to ease my mind. LOL. Yes, it sounds crazy and completely insane, but it was reassuring seeing more positive results. Matt's parents came over to help paint that day, and I figured they would have picked up that something was going on, since we were acting so weird and secretive. So we decided to spill the beans, even though we were still waiting on the blood work. They were estatic and his mom teared up :) I wish more than anything I could've told my parents in person to see their reactions, but there was NO WAY I could wait until I saw them next! They were on their way to KC, so I called my moms cell...no answer...then my dads cell...no answer. I was about to start re-dialing them like crazy, when my mom called back. "You're going to be grandparents!" They were on cloud 9. This is something that they have wanted for awhile, but I never realized just how much until now. Being able to make both sets of parents Grandparents for the first time is so special. They deserve it so much and I tell ya, thank GOD for them. They will be such great grandparents, and teachers for us as we begin this first time journey. Words can not express how thankful we are for them.

So Saturday morning rolls around. 8am, CareNow opens, so guess whose on the phone calling them for my results? This girl. Hey, they told me tomorrow, and it's tomorrow. "No ma'am, they are not back from the lab yet." Ok ok...off to work I go. 10am, no word from CareNow...they probably forgot, so I decide to call them back. "Ma'am, we will call you when your results come in." Sigh. This is too much! So 1pm, I'm on my lunch break (trying with all I have not to call again) and the nurse calls me back. "Congratulations! You're having a baby!" Eeeeeee!!!! It is REAL! Wait, it's real. Woe. ITS REALLY HAPPENING! I call Matt and tell the dad-to-be the great news and call my parents to tell them the doctor confirmed! I have NEVER had this mix of emotions before. We are just so blessed. We will now be a family of 5. Pete & Mr. Sam will be big brothers and Matt and I will soon be parents...Mom & Dad......whew, I can only say I am thankful there are 9 months to prepare for the lil blessing. Part of me wishes it will fly by because I can't wait to squeeze the lil bean, but another part is hoping it goes slow so we can physically and mentally prepare. Who am I kidding...we can't wait!

We already love you so much Baby Hop. See you around March 27, 2013!

Home Sweet Home

Two Weeks. That's how long we have been in our home. OUR home. Our home buying adventure was definitely quick. And I like that. It seriously stresses me out to apartment search, look for a new car, let alone, a HOUSE. After falling in love with the pictures of the first home we looked at, and actually seeing the house in person (big disappointment...yes, it was nice, but did not feel like home AT ALL), I mentally prepared myself that this was not going to be easy. The home we purchased was the second one we looked at. To tell you the truth, I did not want to even look at this house. Matt and the Realtor assured me it would be worth it. Let me tell ya, the pics of the house online did not do any justice! The minute we walked in, Matt and I both looked at each other with excitement. We knew this was meant to be ours. All of the potential that this adorable home had was rushing through by head..."our couch would look SO good in here"..."We definitely need to paint this room a sage green"..."This would make the perfect baby's room someday!"..."Mr.Sam will love this yard!"..."This chandelier thing has got to go"...we were already talking like it was ours. And it soon was. Well, not that soon. I had NO idea how much paperwork, different parties that are involved, things to sign, etc there were. Oh my gosh. Thank goodness Matt took care of most of it and stayed on top of everything. I swear we had to fax something to somebody everyday for almost a month. But...here we are, home.sweet.home.

Moving day was Tuesday, July 18th. I hate packing. I hate moving. But it had to be done. We were so blessed to have Matt's dad help with the heavy lifting/Uhaul driver and Matt's mom, who cleaned our new home from top to bottom. Such an AMAZING help! It took all day, I mean sun up to sun down, to move everything. And that was just putting things into the Uhaul, driving them to our new home, and taking them out of the Uhaul and placing them in the garage or inside the house somewhere. Needless to say, we slept on our matress on the floor the first night. We never slept better. I'm not gonna lie, I am not a fan of change...I was worried our home wouldn't feel like home, atleast not for awhile. But it felt comfortable. Ours. Home. Even Mr.Sam & Bubs think so.



And I have to brag a bit about my husband, who has completely impressed me with his handyman skills (not that I didn't think he was handy, just not this handy :) ). In just 2 short weeks, he has managed to paint the entire family room, dining room, bedroom, prime the framing, install a new microwave, re stain our dining room table and chairs, watered the new plants...not to mention moving everything heavy to its new room. I know there is much more he's done. It's a lot of work. But oh so worth it.